there will be a time for questions at the end of today's program.

Before I begin to write, I feel as though I should preface that I've had about 4 total hours of sleep today. So forgive me if it doesn't make a whole lot of sense.

ok. WHY do ex-boyfriends always come back telling you about all the things that they've changed about themselves? PS. These issues are the reasons why you felt it as best to break up in the beginning.

A. I probably shouldn't have talked to him to give him the opportunity to tell me about all the things that are different.
B. I shouldn't have talked to him while I was drunk.

Set up: I drank too much, and took his favorite shot. Decided it was a great idea to text him about it. We ended up texting for a while, and called him when I got home (4:30) because I didn't "feel like texting anymore."

Highlights of the Convo (from what I remember): We spoke about the hard times that my family is going through. Which actually helped a lot. We spoke about skank-a-lank. I told him that I knew about her all along, and asked if it was worth it? He immediately said no, of course. I wonder if he thought I was talking about their relationship, or about it ultimately being the end of ours. He mentioned that his sister has agreed to stay out of his relationships (why after we break up). Apparently, he FINALLY realized what a strain on his relationships she's been. Good for him, right? He also told me that he's not drinking as much (the MAJOR issue that I had). How long will that last?

I told him I missed him. WHAT? I know, bad idea. He said he missed me, too.

Basically, I'm taking full responsibility for the feelings that I'm having right now. WHY am I missing him now? It's been almost 6 months. Of course I've missed him before, but not like I do now. Before it was the "I miss you because I spent so much time with you and now your gone." Now it's the, "I miss your touch, our conversations, and your I love you's."

HOW do I make it go away? I feel as though its wrong to miss him and let even the slightest thought of getting back together pass through my mind.

He called today (day after the initial phone call). We didn't talk about too much and he said he call later. WHY do I want him to call?