I believe something is wrong with me. My boyfriend (now Ex) and I broke up a little over a week ago. I was expecting at least a week or two of feeling sorry for myself...you know the usual girl stuff. Crying while watching 'chick flicks'. Crying while listening to sad music. Crying while stalking him on the facebook. Well--just being crazy sad. I mean we dated for almost 11 months (my longest ever BTW), and we were friends for 4 years before that.
WHY haven't I been sad? I feel like a bitch, or something because I actually feel relieved. Don't get me wrong, I loved him, as a bestfriend...but there were just some thing missing. ...passion for one? Sounds stupid right? No, I didn't feel that spark...
Regardless of the reason, all of these things show me that we weren't really meant to be. I love him and always will, but the obvious always shines through eventually.
the joy that comes in the morning.
9 years ago
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